1. What were you afraid of as a child?
The dark. I was terribly afraid of the dark. And moving out of my comfort zone. Speaking to adults. Change. When I was an early teenager, my mother would drive up to the door of the market and hand me money and tell me to run in and get her some milk and an onion (or whatever random thing she needed) and I would refuse. I would sit there paralyzed. I was terrified of walking into the market and finding the milk, finding the onion, and going through the checkout line and having to interact with the checker. I wasn’t a shy kid, I just had anxiety over doing something I wasn’t used to doing on a regular basis.
2. When have you been most courageous?
Leaving my husband. Fighting him. Leaving physically abusive relationships. Getting hearing aids last year.
3. What sound most disturbs you?
My four year old screaming.
4. What is the greatest amount of physical pain you’ve been in?
Child Birth. Being kicked in the stomach. Being hit in the face, was not quite as bad as that, but pretty bad. Having Wisdom teeth pulled is probably the lowest on the list.
5. What’s your biggest fear for your children? (or children in general if you don’t have some of your own.)
I hope I am raising two young girls into strong women. I fear that if I don’t teach them right, they may repeat my history. I hope I am setting a good example now, as I have become stronger.
6. What is the hardest physical challenge you’ve achieved?
Running 15 mile trail run to the Continental Divide in the rain in Buena Vista, Colorado…and back down again.
7. Which do you prefer: Mountains or oceans/big water?
8. What is the one thing you do for yourself that helps you keep everything together?
Stop and listen to my children. Stop and listen to myself.
9. Ever had a close relative or friend with cancer?
My grandmother. She had Ovarian. Went through two surgeries and then decided not to carry on anymore. I was pregnant with my children both times and about to deliver Blue when she died. I am grateful she met Red and grateful to have had her a daily presence in my life growing up.
10. What are the things your friends count on you for?
Fun. Not judging them. Creative help.
11. What is the best part of being in a committed relationship?
This is hard for me. I have been in committed relationships that haven’t been good. If that makes sense. I think, the best part about being in a good committed relationship is knowing there is someone there who unconditionally loves me, without judgement, supportive. That being said, not all committed relationships are like that.
12. What is the hardest part of being in a committed relationship?
Communicating and remembering to love unconditionally when we hurt.
13. Summer or Winter? Why?
Summer. Work slows down. We have 6 beaches to choose from in our town. Daily non-agendas, where we can do whatever we want, whenever we want. Outside.
14. Have you ever been in a school-yard fight? Why and what happened?
I was in first grade and a bully boy pushed me on my face in the snow. I was living in Evergreen, Colorado for the year. He came out of nowhere and I am not sure why he did it. I remember getting a bloody fat lip and then going into music class and having popcorn in class because it was Friday and crying because the salt hurt my lip.
15. Why blog?
I like that I can be randomly funny, thoughtful, or crazy. I like getting it all out on “paper”. I like the folks I have “met”.
16. Did you learn about sex, and/or sex safety from your parents?
Hell no! When I learned how to use the card catalog at the library, I snuck over and looked up sex books and read them in the back of the stacks. I was probably around 13.
17. How do you plan to talk to your kids about sex and/or sex safety?
I have NO idea. I have a few years before I get into the real details. But I do plan on talking about it in great detail, openly and honestly. Because my parents never did and I don’t want them to think it is a taboo subject, to be ashamed or to not ask questions.
18. What are you most thankful for this year?
That we are healthy. That I feel satisfied. That I feel safe. That there is balance in our lives. That I have wonderful friends and people in my life. That I appear to be in a healthy loving relationship. The one bump in the road is being taken care of. And if it isn’t, I will be strong enough to make a change.
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