I’ll miss this.
He’s off for his three month gig.
I picked J up from his house up north and we drove back down to my house yesterday morning. I made a psuedo Thanksgiving dinner and the four of us played games and hung out until it was time for the girls to go to bed.
We got in bed around 9, because for the most part, we didn’t really want to talk about missing each other or how it might be hard. But just being in bed together for a long night, felt like the only thing left to do. I was well aware of him, as I woke up every hour, next to me and I wanted to stay aware of it because it will be a little while before it happens again.
The fact that he is going south for this big gig definitely has a goodt feel to it, aside from the part about missing him. This is a part of who he is, so it ends up being a part of who we are. That he’s a musician who will mostly be with us, but sometimes go away.
I am certainly grateful for technology, for ichat and email and skype, for us to communicate.
I am grateful he has made it known that he expects me in December and he expects me for a week in February. And I am touched that he has made it clear that when he comes back in three months, his intention is to be around as much as he has been.
After getting him to the airport shuttle early this morning, I brought the girls to school. I’ve been doing okay, feeling a little sad, but knowing I have alot of work ahead of me the next few weeks for my business, along with the holidays. I know I can keep it in perspective and know I will feel sad sometimes and lonely on occasion. But I am heartened by the fact that we have a really really good thing going.
So, I take the girls to school and a friend of mine was standing there. And Red went right up to her and said “We just took the J to the airport shuttle and won’t see him again until March!”
So, I was doing okay until my friend started to cry for me. She got all teary and I got all teary and choked up. She goes, “Three months?” And I just nodded.
I walked in my house, wondering how I would spend the morning, with the girls in school, with J leaving town.
And my phone rang and it was J, sitting at Starbucks at Logan, reading the paper, having checked his luggage, his keyboard and bag, and had opened the cards the girls and I had each made him.
“I feel very loved by you,” he said.
That made me smile and cry.
My motto is that I never let anyone cry alone – so I joined on cue while reading that you and your friend cried this morning. But I’ve been a bit teary this week anyway – so I probably got there faster than I would have on a normal week.
I hate that you will be alone tomorrow – I will toast a good cold brew to you as I gather around family tomorrow. Our children won’t be with us for this long weekend because of our choice to attend a football game on Saturday. But they’ll be having fun with the grandparents who are taking them to their vacation place a few hours down the road.
Enjoy the alone time to do whatever it is that you want to do. This times are few and far between and can actually be quite precious.
That’s a good looking leg you’ve got there ;D Hey, it won’t be long. You’ll be together.
I got a little misty just reading about it…..crap.
You know I’m not going to let this go with a comment.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder? Nah. Time away is time spent in nuturing love? Nah.
Screw it, your going to miss him, he’s going to miss you…
Enjoy your holiday.
M
Ah, I’m sad for you guys, but it sounds like you’ve totally got the connection to make it through. (Not just saying that, I spent a VERY long time in a California to England relationship before being able to join my honey over here.)
The holidays will make things extra hard in some ways, but how lucky you are to have someone thinking about you as much as you’re thinking about him.
Hopefully the time will go fast
.. and you have your time together booked .. so it will be something to look forward to ..
*Hugs*
I do hope that your time apart goes by quickly. Keep yourself busy if you can to make the time go by faster, I have been there before.
Awwww. But December isn’t too far away, at least.
so glad you had a nice thanksgiving meal with him and some cuddling time in bed. he is clearly, madly in love with you and the girls love him. how special.
one thing you could do is stop saying 3 months..since you’ll get to see him in about a month. i find that watching my language really helps. will you go before and or after christmas?
that will be quite a celebration when you see one another again. something fun to look forward to.
happy thanksgiving sweetie
Well, if you’re feeling lonely, come over to my place and i’ll make you a nice Spam Casserole… ;^)
… with a thick, rick, cream sauce. Over noodles…
… “rich”, not “rick”…
Ahhh, touching post and lovely photo.
Do you know the musical, “The Fantasticks?” Lots of symbolism, including a wall that keeps the young lovers apart, at first. That wall is important, it turns out.
So is your wall, I’ll bet, that one called ‘distance.’
Hang in there, girl. Keep busy, love on your girls, and the time will pass quickly, I promise.
Oh, that was so sad and sweet and hopeful all at the same time. He sounds like such a great guy. Things can only be good.
you just made me tear up you goober! 😦